friendship is so weird???
Like it starts out with compliments and cute things and then suddenly it does a complete 360 and you just start screaming at them and calling them motherfucker
I hate that I’m still so completely traumatized from what I went through with my ex. And I always say that I’m over it and for the most part I am but there’s a lot of times where it’s all I think about and I can’t help but feel so much pain from it. No one actually knows everything that happened mostly because I’m so embarrassed of the things that happened and that I let it get so bad. I would honestly never wish the things he did or said to me and the way he treated me on anyone else no one should ever have to go through something like that. I don’t even know what I did to deserve that all. Because of him I can never fully trust or feel anything for anyone, even when I really want to I’m so paranoid about every little thing when I feel to close to someone. I hate thinking about it and actually admitting it but him trying to talk to me again brought this out. No apology could ever fix what he put me though he could say he’s sorry as much as he wants but he’s never going to truly mean it. Like you tried to hit me with your fucking car 3 weeks ago and now you’re sorry? Makes sense. He just says it to feel better about himself. He’s such a piece of shit and the only person I genuinely hate in this world.